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Recently I came to an epiphany, which made me want to blog about shauni in the first place.
I'll start by saying that I could fall into her eyes. They are dark and very sad, but it makes it twice as worthwhile when she smiles. YES I KNOW THATS A CLICHE, but hey somethings are beautiful for a reason. I notice that too often she will come at a loss for words, and use her smile as a response. Kind of like a conversational get out of bail free card. The sad thing is that it works, as if people can be satisfied with just extracting a smile from her, rather than \something with actual substance to it. It makes me wonder if she's aware if she has this kind of effect on people.
Anyway recently I captured a memory of her, and vivid detail, and she wasn't smiling. In fact nothing about her expression or compusure was very enjoyable at all, rather it was all blank. Not really emotionless...more calm, and even a little perplexed, like she was both confused and curious about what she was looking at...that thing being me. Which makes me wonder if I have that affect on people. Anyway, she has sad eyes, which makes it a sad memory, the kind that you try to forget but secretly don't want to. It teaches me something. That even people who can seem like they are above me, may still try to find it hard to comprehend me. So I alone can, in my mind, bring them down to earth. sigh, I shouldn't encourage myself...
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As much as I love my new friends. I'll NEVER forget my previous ones. Everyone from the East, ROCH, DE,and my wonderful family. They made me what I am today, and gave me more than I deserve or hope. Nothing can replace them and nothing should, and I'm glad to have known them. Really a priviledge.
Okay that is all.
I can sleep now. `
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